When I was writing last night’s post, I had this gut feeling that if I wrote about good health, CF would rear back and crush me with a blow to the head. And it did. I woke up sweating, which has been happening on and off for over a month, but hadn’t reached the level it did this morning. My stomach was upset but nothing major as far as pain goes. And, I had a bad reaction to yesterday’s allergy shot. I felt like crap and started to panic.
Hello, Xanax. I took it but it didn’t help with feeling hot and sweating, but did take some of the edge off the anxiety.
I took two allergy tabs. I ate breakfast. Then I started to feel a little better. I forced myself to lift weights this afternoon and felt like I had really good air. In fact, after working out I felt good. Then I ate some carrots and cherries, and 20, 25 minutes later the same cycle started again.
Then during my afternoon treatment, I had some thick blood streaks, which I hope were tied to the workout. Or to the sweating? Do I have an infection after all, somewhere the Cayston didn’t reach? I don’t have a fever, but am hot, sweaty and clammy.
Or is it a reaction to the allergy shot? Is it my stomach? Hormones?
I am amazed that yesterday was so different. I was happy that I’d escaped the hospital, but now I feel like I should check in. I just knew this would happen. I was punished for pride about doing something right.
It’s days like this when I feel like giving up.
Its okay to have those feelings. Take them for what they are worth, honor them for a moment, and flush them. screw giving up. you’re my hero. now go kick some ass! much love ~j
Thanks, Juli. Not feeling like much of a hero as I look at the blood streaks I coughed up tonight, but that was very nice of you to say. I suggest you stick with Drew Brees. 🙂 It’s just amazing how it can turn on a dime. I must have sensed it in some way last night. I angered the gods. 🙂
Best to you and the girls as always.
There’s some strange shit going on recently! First Fatboy write’s a post about his last blockage then Sod’s Law a couple of day’s later he get’s one! Now you with your latest post. Anyway I hope you feel better soon and I’m sending good thought’s and vibes your way dude. Take a moment to lay down and look at the sky 😉
Thanks, Sir Sean. I appreciate the vibes.
As long as you bounce back, have these days. They do you good to keep you in check. Murphy moved into our spare bedroom, like Sean said, but no worries. I kicked him out already.
Thank you, Jesse.